poetry: Restless

Restless heart, mindless spirit,
driven to and fro across the landscape
of the heart, without reservation,
continuously searching the perimeter,
scanning the horizon for something new.

Relentless in its intention, the yetzer hara
attempts to deceive the soul into thinking
that empty promises will amount to something,
better than the rewards of diligence,
perseverence, and adherence to a rule.

Yet, I know that my daily routine
is arranged with respect towards Heaven,
so that my soul may be lifted up
above this mundane world.
And, no amount of distractions
may be permitted to prevail
over what is Essential.

There is not a single blade of grass,
that is actually greener on the other side
of my sacred moments in time,
nor, the place where I rest in solitude.
Rather, it is the noisy jungle,
outside of my Refuge,
that will remain unexplored,
for the sake of true sanctity.

poetry: Listen

L-rd, listen to my plea, help me to
discover the nature of this issue,
the roots of this continual problem,
the crux of this challenging dilemma.

The murkiness keeps resurfacing,
with ever increasing strength,
when given leeway to uproot
the positivity in my life.

I am unable to conquer on my own,
this perpetual strife that reappears again,
after everything seemed to settle down;
yet, waves of emotional distress arise.

Seek Me when I may be found,
the L-rd will provide rest and comfort,
after the storms have been stilled;
washed up on the sands of time.
Footsteps of the Messiah.

poetry: Sacred Words

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Captured by the silence,
everything intensifies,
including my fears, especially
when I neglect my prayers.

Only sacred words
have the power to sustain me.
When my avodas is diminished,
I become entrenched in the mire.

My thoughts wander,
and silence turns oppressive,
until I reach into the depths
of my soul for a heartfelt prayer.

With the help of the Ruach,
my words will transcend time and space,
reaching out to the heavens,
like sweet smelling incense.

poem: Silence

I call out in silence,
from the depth of my soul,
unto the depth of Your
unfathomable wisdom.

When You respond with a nudge,
or an intuition sent from Heaven,
it is done so in the silence of my heart.
And, I am at Your Mercy.

Your kindnesses to me are beyond
my ability to appreciate, in all gratitude,
what has been done, over the years.
And, I falter for honest words,
that express the essence
of remorse for my negligence.

Shema – hear, listen, hearken
and understand the Word of G-d,
silently reaching out in the darkness
of our lives. Heed the call.

poem: Surface Values

You have still
only scratched the surface,
of your resistance towards a life lived,
in due respect towards the Creator,
and all of His creation,
both animate and inanimate.

Yet, the greater challenge is
to plummet the depths of your soul,
by exposing the tainted layers of neglect
that must be peeled away.

Like an archaeology dig,
wherein every layer’s artifacts
are carefully categorized,
and stored away for further analysis.
The soul is at the center,
buried beneath the years
of living a life unexamined,
having carelessly made your way
through the wilderness
of childhood and young adulthood.

poem: Bestowal

Let not the Adversary
steal your peace of mind,
nor the benefits of prayer,
so efficacious for your soul.

Set your heart upon Me;
I will set my seal upon you.
A seat is reserved for you
at the Wedding Banquet.

Until that time, your soul
may rest upon these promises,
that you may not be compromised
in body, mind, nor spirit.

May your self esteem improve,
and your soul be nourished
with all the gifts from Heaven,
that will be bestowed upon you
in due time.

poem: Endurance

I had forgotten about viewing
each and every headache or annoyance
as a desired cross to bear in the moment.

Only desired, as a fulfillment
of G-d’s unique will for me,
meant to lead towards Him.

And, these moments will add up
to an eternity of bliss and equanimity,
once accepted with the grace supplied.

For no challenge, nor consequence
is too great of a burden, when
we cast our vision towards Him.

Smouldering, beneath a facade
of pretension, lies the truth
of the human condition.

No expectation will be met,
unless we make every effort
on our own to succeed.

G-d will make up the difference:
He will bridge the gap between
our weakness and His strength.

poem: Direction

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There is only One who is good,
our Father in Heaven, Who looks
down upon us with a benevolent gaze.

Not that our limited perception
can always comprehend the intention
of His guidance in our lives.

Nor, may we perceive
the immediate benefit
of the direction He points.

Yet, He will always be merciful to us,
even though we may be wounded
along the way we are shown to take.

poem: Reflection

I believe
that the only other opportunity
that I would have to reflect,
for as much time as I do,
while sheltering in place,
despite the lessening of restrictions,
is if I lived in a monastery.

Here, in my quiet dwelling,
a one room apartment,
with everything I need,
for constant contemplation,
and no distractions,
as l long as I have the fan on
for background noise, or
my earbuds, while listening
to music without lyrics,
I remain in stasis; yet,
am able to plumb
the depths of my soul.